14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
I'm sure there are a thousand essays, books, articles and devotionals written about this scripture, but even with all of them I still got an extreme revelation April 16, 2013.
April 15 I found myself excited and on the way to the hospital. The birth of our baby boy was about to happen. In labor and feeling amazing we walked into the hospital almost giddy with knowing we were about to have our 2nd child. My older daughter had just turned 3 and we couldn't wait to see her hold and tickle her baby brother's toes. The next few hours, however, changed our life forever. As the initial resident doctor and nurses checked my vitals the feel of the room changed quickly. They were telling me our baby was breech and I might have to have a c-section. Scared I began texting everyone I thought would be helpful to me. My first child was a perfect labor and delivery, no drugs even, it was amazing. Then, our doctor came. He explained our baby had swelling on his brain and said we have to do a csection quickly. I felt the room spin, looked at my husband and asked the worst question... Is he saying our child could die? My husband nodded and said he thought so. I asked the doctor the same question and he said with tears in his eyes that he didn't know. My husband and I prayed and cried the most raw moment I have ever had in my life. We were confused, a bit scared but knew that God was good no matter what. The good thing about our faith. When chaos and tragedy hit you know in your heart that things will in the end be ok. Even if we lost our child. I called my mom while they prepped me for the csection and then was whisked away to surgery. My husband held my hand and soon we heard our baby cry. I asked my husband.... is it a girl? I had this feeling my entire pregnancy that our baby boy was a girl. It was!! The nurse brought her over for a moment and explained that our daughter (-daughter!-) Has spina bifida. I nearly yelled, "I don't care she is alive, that's ok." We had picked out a girl's name months before. That day with hydrocephalus and spina bifida Katie Joy was born.
The next day, April 16, I told my husband I hated Satan for doing this. He looked at me and said that he didn't think it was Satan. He said her Spina Bifida reminded him of the blind man in John 9. I immediately thought of Psalm 139. God knew my daughter's frame and even knit it together in my womb. She is fearfully and wonderfully made. All the trials in my life have led up to me being this type of mother.
What is the point in my story? There is a purpose in the trials you go through. God doesn't allow things just for sport. He isn't laughing at your tears and pain. He takes them seriously. He takes them so seriously He takes those trials and creates a purpose for them. What trial have you faced or maybe are facing?
My first challenge is for you to take those trials in prayer to your Creator. He wants you to let them be His so He can show the world through you His amazing love, strength, joy, peace and righteousness. Why would God take the time to know your frame and knit you together if He doesn't care about you?
My second challenge is to read and re-read the above scripture. Do you know that God created you? Katie Joy is paralyzed from her knees to her toes. She has a shunt in her brain forever. She will not walk perfectly.....She is fearfully and wonderfully made. God calls her wonderful. So are you.